.: feeling blessed :.
4.11.09
will there be anyone out there helping me out of this mess ??
Banyak pertentangan jiwa... berkali kali jatuh ke lubang yang sama, boleh! kalo ada yang mau bilang boge eh bego. setiap waktu stres akan hal yang sama, bermasalah akan hal yang sama, kenapa ? how come ? jadi ngga berasa enjoy sama diri sendiri, jadi ngga bisa nrimo sama keadaan diri sendiri.. naudzubillah mindzalik apa hamba telah menjadi golongan orang kufur ni'mat Mu ya Allah ??
Labels: penting ya... ?
3.10.09
Failure of Transition 2
"I understand what you mean, the problem is i don't know how to get what you mean, how to make that happen... so that's cause all these big stupid problems happens, i must admit."
So now what ? there's alot goin' on in my workplace only in th past 1 month, startin' with the internal audit reference shockin' everyone in the office, then the domino effects came along with it till now.
While the people kept busy blaming each other i just stand out, working on the never ending paperworks and watch sometimes for those who can not get theirselves fixed by these all matters instead blaming blaming and blaming around. pffffffhhhh please... i'm getting creeped out with this place, affraid by the time goes by, one day i can be just like one of them-shallow-helpless-people arrrggghhhh!! God! Nooo!
26.8.09
Failure of Transition
23.5.09
Menyesakkan.
Rabu. 21 Mei 2009. Dikuret.
Semoga Allah SWT mendengar doaku ini, agar kuret yg kualami menjadi pengalaman yg pertama & terakhir dalam hidupku-hidup kami.. Amin. Karna kesedihan yg ditimbulkannya walaupun janin baru berumur 3 bulan, aku tetap merasakan kehilangan sesuatu yg telah kuanggap bagian dari diriku sendiri :'(
Aku dan suami belajar ikhlas menerima ujian ini, dan berusaha yakin, percaya dan menyadari sepenuhnya bahwa hanya kepada Allah SWT sajalah tempat asal dan berpulangnya semua makhluk termasuk our 3 months-baby becoming, manusia hanya bisa berencana pada akhirnya Allah-lah yg memutuskan... Semoga Allah menguatkan iman islam kami dan memberikan hikmah terbaik dibalik cobaan ini amin amin...
14.5.09
"Ordinary World"
Labels: in english, musiks
11.5.09
I'm on this miserable works; so many things to do, i don't understand the things, deadlock mind and thought, hopeless. it's so... not me
Labels: in english, penting ya... ?
6.5.09
TWILIGHT SAGA
And finally last night i saw the Twilight movie... though you can say it's already late, anyway! cos we haven't got much time to go to the cinema like we (read: me and hubby) used to be... compare to its book, i say the movie not bringin' strong enough the Twilight Saga scent as much as the book does. yes i do like Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen (very much), Kristen Stewart as Bella and the rest other character but the mimic, the play aren't strong enough somehow i lost the feels, the aura, the spirit, the power and the strength of Twilight Books, in a short, it's disappointing fiuhhh. Hopefully the sequels will be better than the first, like LOTR or Harry Potter did.
Labels: in english, Movies
14.2.09
deeply Beyond Borders!
It's about 10 times i saw the movie; Beyond Borders,even last night when i saw it again on Antv, it's surprising me much found myself's sumhow stilll weeping whenever saw it... Specially where the moment Jolie try to save an african baby from being eaten by umm what d'you call in english burung bangkai anyway ? God! It's really really great damn movie!
11.2.09
Kualitas Temen Lo...?
Emang paling ketauan kualitas temen tuh pas pada saat kita lagi dalam kesusahan, entah kesusahan materi, kesusahan dukungan moril, kesusahan spirit hidup et cetera. Cari temen pas kita lagi happy ? BANYAK!! tapi kalo pas lagi susah... WHUSSSSSSSSSSSSS! ngilang semua bo! i mean, ga tiap waktu kan kita selalu dalam keadaan bagus segala2nya, ada kalanya dateng masa bangkrut nya, disitulah ketauan mana temen yg bener temen, yang emang peduli bahkan sampe nolongin kita juga, or just fair weather friends *najesss!* dan bukan ga mungkin sesudah masa bangkrut trus kita berjaya lagi, bahkan lebih lebih berjaya nya! amin!!
Ada yang bilang itu juga cerminan diri kita sendiri, apakah kita sendiri udah segitu care nya ke temen kita ? oke lah kalo emang bukan type care ke temen2 ya wajarlah lo ngalamin hal yg gw sebutin diatas tadi, tapi kalo dijawab udah, trus gimane ? ternyata dunia emang ga selalu bekerja 2 arah, asas timbal balik itu ga selalu ada... seperti hal yang gw alamin sekarang.
Just don't ever leave all hopes on people even your closer ones, gotta hang it up only to Allah S.W.T and your very ownself!
Ada yang bilang itu juga cerminan diri kita sendiri, apakah kita sendiri udah segitu care nya ke temen kita ? oke lah kalo emang bukan type care ke temen2 ya wajarlah lo ngalamin hal yg gw sebutin diatas tadi, tapi kalo dijawab udah, trus gimane ? ternyata dunia emang ga selalu bekerja 2 arah, asas timbal balik itu ga selalu ada... seperti hal yang gw alamin sekarang.
Just don't ever leave all hopes on people even your closer ones, gotta hang it up only to Allah S.W.T and your very ownself!
Labels: penting ya... ?, Tips
26.10.08
Eci & Icad
Ponakan gokil si aa
